TODAY is da 3rd DAY of FEBRUARY!-time to do

I feel the need to bring about change. I feel the need to break free of the chains that stop me from chasing after my dreams. I've gotten so tired of living the same inane days, ending in the same boredom. This month-and-so-on, I want to change, but this time, leave the past right where it belongs and start new. Let go of inhibitions, and just go for everything. This m-a-s-o, I want to make memories, I want to do insane things, I want to live life each day at a time. Last month, I probably had the worse summer of my life. This m-a-s-o, I want it to be different. I want to reinvent myself, I'm tired of being who everyone wants me to be, this year, I'm going to be me. I'm going to take the past for what it's worth, and allow it do disintegrate from my life. I will move on, I will try harder.

Today, I was sitting in front of my computer realizing this world is filled with tens of billions of people. Not just the select group I surround myself with. There are so many different groups there are so many things I can do with my life. I want to be someone that my mom will be proud of, not just another average person with an average house in an average neighbourhood. I want to do something extraordinary.

This MONTH-AND-SO-ON, I want to:

• Start actually taking care of my skin, my hair, my eye, all-my-appearance-physically.
• Let go of the past, and build on the future.
• Progress myself to be more inspired, motivated, dedicated and zealous.
• Actually get some air on my wakeboard.
• Start actually communicating my feelings, rather than acting like nothing's wrong all the time.
• Get a job, and start learning to provide for myself.
• Stop taking things for granted, and start realizing I can't always get what I want.
• Stop being so forgiving when people don't deserve it.
• Start getting healthy, and give up junk food.
• Prove that i need to be happy single to be happy as a couple.(but not so, they always tend to have conflicts, jealousy matter, and discordant)
• Get my bellybutton re-pierced/let the old piercings grow in.
• Earn back everyone's respect and trust, thereby stop lying and start actually listening.

This month-and-so-on, will be different. This m-a-s-o will be the mark in my life that reminds me just who I am, just who I've always wanted to be, and just who I will be. I see something different in this m-a-s-o, I see it just might be something very different. I'll be eighteen:18 (23rd MARCH), 1 year older, 1 year wiser, a totally new person. I will not break any promises, I will do everything I can to be a better person.

.I want to change my life.
...Wake up...
.Time to do.